Postnatal depression

Aaaah depression a world you can not use with some people but thankfully my husband and friends it is a conversation we can openly have. I like every human naturally swing with moods. Some days are great others a little plain and some dark. Very normal but throw in a baby and normal can feel like a 1000 miles away.
What I think makes it hardest is the lack of acknowledgement from some people. You know the ones who only have time for you when success triumph good times are abundant.

I love to share my ups and downs and are thankful that a network of friends family and the community I live have helped to hold me during these first few months of my babies life.

My baby and big kids

I have found my love for my 7 1/2 month Ambrose swelling. Big kids are great but I need to work harder to connect and draw them in. One on one so important and I need to find more time for myself and with each of my children. Matilda love to swim and Felix loves to have first born time. Time for me to direct this attention as the child use negative activity to seek their needs.

Matilda prep orientation

Matilda is 5 and will start school next year. We are ready and have been for well over 6 months. November heralds the beginning of orientation where we meet the students who will begin the educational journey with Matilda over 4 half day sessions. I hope Matilda finds her confidence within the group and that it isn't filled with know all first borns like her brother and cousins (& mother:)
I do not find her starting school as daunting as when Felix started and I hope she can draw on our confidence.

Being 7 months

Ambrose is 7 months and has been crawling now for the past 2 months. He has taught himself to clap and will clap along with songs sung or played on the piano. 7 teeth are used to bite fingers as well as food. Ambrose is leading the way with what he wants to eat so far everything except chickpea seems to delight him Ambrose is completely in love with Felix and Matilda. His face lights up with delight when we pick them up from kinder or school. Ambrose happily sleeps with michael and I at night and will feed between 2-6 times in an evening. Ambrose is a delightful happy and smiley baby who we all enjoy throughly everyday.

Tumblr for photo blogging

Blogger is not working for my photo blogging for craft blogging and garden developments so I have started a photo blog at

therealmilander.tumber.com

Piano Concert

"Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens" Felix effortlessly sing while playing on the piano. Completely comfortable in front of the 60 people at the piano concert Felix enjoys the spot light. Matilda watches on and begs that she too can start learning piano, which I agree she need to do. I wish I had done music as early as Felix (& Matilda) have. Ambrose coos and listen attentively to the music.

Schools

It has taken me many weeks to overcome the stock I have felt after taking part in a school tour. I visited an exclusive Melbourne girls school for a morning tour and chat. Why? My intention was to find a girls only schooling for my daughter, one which maybe like my own. On paper the school looks wonderful and I imagine that many of the parents on the tour where ready to sign up on the day. I however came away feeling that it was all so fake. How could I buy into this facade of facts, fancy facilities, amazing stats when all I could feel the school was creating was a monoculture of compliant, well behaved and boring women for the next generation. There were no discipline problem(ie they have children not willing to challenge and expand their horizons?) I started to ask myself why I was there what I was searching for? After many days of discussion with friends and my husband I started to realize that I was looking for sometime that is not going to exist in the main stream private school sector. I think I have become a school snob and expect more! I was looking for a place where my daughter can grow into an independent, strong willed and creative person with a strong sense of character. Private schools seem to have become a status symbol and a factory to generate "yes" people rather than a place of progressive education and a challenge to the status quo. My stock it that I am turning my back on the institution which has educated the last 4 generations of my family.


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